thoughts loose in my mind.
feelings not embedded but randomly reminded of.
to each unit living in specific heart rooms:


you were so close before.
my comfort zone.
where warm oceans roll up to meet the golden shore.
your smile, beautiful.
your eyes, soft yet strong.
i see you through an open window pair.
but do i know you?
no wait, do you know me?


where has our sunday gone to.
our routine fellowship.
have we lost it so soon?
like a lady ageing with time.
the inability to rectify what nature has for us.
no more "tell the world".
our number one jam tune.
well to each their commitments.


not helping and not fulfilling.
strumming empty, emotionless songs.
not from the depth of my heart but from the surface of my skin.
every other's whims and fancies except my own.
last this till a fresh breath of air is found.
i have three.
why cant any of them function perfectly?


i've given up on giving up slowly
i'm blending in so you wont even know me
apart from this whole world that shares my fate
this one last bullet you mention
it's my one last shot at redemption
cause i know to live you must give your life away


and i've been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and i've been locked inside that house
all the while you hold the key
and i've been dying to get out
and that might be the death of me
and even though there's no way of knowing where to go
i promise i'm going because
i'm begging you to be my escape.

perfection at 10:40 PM